I didn't sleep last night.

J rang me to tell me she has put an offer in on a house and it has been accepted, she hopes to have moved by the 2nd week of September as it is a cash buy!

I discovered that our house prices have fallen by £20,000!

I now feel more trapped than ever.

Yes I will miss J but to be honest at the moment I am more worried about ME!

£20,000 - what the fuck.

So all my hopes of selling up are dashed and I am in real termoil - at least I had the hope that I could if I wanted to sell this house - now I've got nothing to hold on to.

Do you know as dramtic as this will sound I felt around my ribs today wondering what it would feel like to put a knife through my heart.

I can't do this anymore. I've nothing to hold on to and it's unbearable