I’m just back from the post box sending yet another application form off.
Thankfully I listen to Radio 5 live and have discovered this week I am not the only person in this situation – so here’s hoping I don’t get yet another rejection letter.
This time I’ve applied for a ‘home carers’ job – it is by no stretch of the imagination what I want to be doing but I’ve got to find something to tide me over.
I NEVER EVER wanted to care of another living soul after K died but then I thought about all those little old people who like me might never see a friendly face all week – so maybe for selfish reasons I applied – I need the company as much as they do, plus I know I can do it – 15 years of caring for K must count for something!
Fingers crossed AGAIN!
If only I can get a job I can get a loan to get my car fixed trouble is for £500 you end up paying back almost £1,000 I don’t want to get in debt but I need my car.
I’ve decided once I’ve got a job I am going to start concentrating on my love life – or lack of it – 2 years and 2 months is way too long to go – I’ve said a billion times before I don’t want a relationship but I do want someone in my life.
I don’t mind being alone but I have got to the point where I don’t want to get into my bed alone anymore! I’m bored there if nothing else!!!!!
If the truth be known I’d rather have K back any day than worry about meeting someone new but that is never going to happen and I need someone grown up to talk to – my grandchildren are wonderful but conversations about ‘baby milk and Thomas the tank’ are getting tiresome! 
